Work Woes

Does anyone else wish they were famous in some way? Not just for the money but more for the freedom? Imagine getting up when you want to only to go DO whatever you want to. Yeah...if you're in the studio or shooting a film you're up and working for as much as 16 hours a day but think of the down time between albums/films. You don't answer to anyone. You are "The Boss." Even if you just narrated some show on Discovery or Animal Planet it would be 100 times better than the daily corporate grind of 8-5 Monday thru Friday. Right?

Right. At least, I'm pretty sure. ;)

Of course, we all have to start somewhere. I swear to God if I hear that one more time I'm going to go Predator on somebody's ass. But, here's some fun proof that even Mike Rowe didn't come out of the womb hosting Discovery Channel's Dirty Jobs.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWEI-5t2m54&feature=related

Well, we can't all be Mike Rowe. So, how do we balance our lives with what we want to do with what we HAVE to do? If you have the answer to this age old question please let me know because I am totally LOST. If you know me you know that I work in what I refer to as "Nazi Germany". I have found myself in the most buttoned down corporate environment you can imagine and it is totally crushing who I am. I am not allowed to flourish, be creative, be myself, laugh, be a part of the team...I basically have one function and I'm chained to my desk for 8 hours a day with about a 15 minute lunch break so that I have plenty of time to perform that function. I spend my day trying to accomplish what I'm paid to do all the while dodging the Gestapo and the upper management otherwise known as the firing squad. On weekends I chase my dream of radio on the Larry Stanley Show here at Bigbadsportsdaddy.com. I also try to pack in as much LIVING as possible. I regroup, focus on WHO I really am, and let go just enough to feel alive so that I can get through the next Monday through Friday while I look forward to the next 3 day weekend or holiday. What the Fuck has happened to me? This was not supposed to be my life.

So, my question is this: Is this how the majority of the world lives? I mean, in my search for truth and my life's path I have run into alot of people who say the same things. Does anyone acutally like what they do? I mean...we all have to have health insurance and a paycheck so do we all just do whatever to get those things or are there actual people who leave work feeling satisfied and fulfilled in some manner? If so, call me. I'd love to meet you.

2010 was supposed to be a killer year for me. And maybe I shouldn't give up so fast. Maybe it's all just around the corner. It's only February after all. :) Wait...what's that? Hope? Hmmm...haven't felt that in a while. Maybe the "work depression" is actually lifting. Hey, maybe there ARE good things ahead I just have to be patient and work to make them happen. Now, there's a thought! Ok...I feel a smile coming on. Life isn't all about the work grind. It's about who you are and how you love others. It's about being fulfilled overall...not just in your job. Jobs come and go but WHO you are remains. :)

Hey, I feel a bit better now. After all it's Friday. Whoo Hoo! I think I'll shave my legs. I've been too sad lately to even do that but that's more of a punishment on poor Rusty. lol. Yeah..a nice hot shower, freshly shaved legs, a DECENT Friday at work spent on Monster.com, and later dinner with friends, wine, and a hot tub. Maybe John will even bring Witten by. Nothing cures a case of the sads like an 8 week old puppy!

To be continued and here's a thought to start your weekend. Braveheart much? One of my fav lines is Cicero: "Sometimes I do what I want to do, the rest of the time I do what I have to..."